So this week........

it started out kinda rough, but it ended well for the most part.

Everything with my family is just gonna take some time....but it's happened, and there's nothing that can be changed about it, but praying, and i know that.

I also had one of my best friends visit this week.  Jake has been around since 7th grade, and by some grace of God, we've truly kept in touch since he moved to Georgia in 9th grade, and he has been my best guy friend all these years.  We defintiely have our differences on things, but somehow it works.   He couldn't have picked a better week to visit.  He took me to a movie and to dinner, which was extrememly nice, and way more than he needed to do, but I definitely appreciate it none-the less.  Im really glad he did visit, though it made me realize just how much I miss him being here....but it happens.  It was most definitely hard saying by, and everyone knows I'm the worlds worst at saying goodbye anyhow...  40 days and he should be able to visit again! =)

Other than that...  this week is finished, it's summer break, the beach is coming up, and im ready and happy.

Sometimes I just don't know what to think..... 

After these last two days I'm just at a loss for words.

It's like life flips on you in a matter of seconds, out of no where, with no warning, and that's just hard.

I know things happen for a reason, but right now it's really becoming hard for me to keep on truly believing that....I know God has a plan, and I pray every day.....but the timing for things just seems so off sometimes.

I've gotten to the point where things don't even suprise me anymore when I find these things out, but they are still jsut so disappointing....and make me wonder how she is even going to handle this.  I hate saying that...I feel like I shouldn't, but theres just no other way to describe this situation.

The next nine months are going to change drastically for oh so many reasons, and right now, I'm really hoping for the better of these, I'm just praying nothing comes up before then.  Maybe this is the one thing that's going to work.....I'm just trying to find something to be positive about.  Sometimes I feel like I'm just on the outside....I wish there was more I could do....or say....or give....and there's nothing left, but prayer....in that God's going to step in and make something happen.

Everytime I'm by myself driving, I think I do the most thinking....and now my mind is just overwhelmed by all of this......

I'm almost done with school....one newlestter to turn in tomorrow...and the summer is mine.

I need it.

3 weeks and I'm going to the beach.

Rest at last.

After that...working my butt of....

Money doesn't grow on trees, and right now....I have to save what I can.

3 months.. and I'm a college senior.

I'm not ready, but I will be.

9 months...and I'm student teaching.

I don't know how I'm gonna survive...

God please help me.

9 months.... everything about my family changes,

I hope we'll be ready...

we will be... it's just gonna be hard.

God please help us.

Please forgive me...if I seem out of character...I try my best not to be.  I try to be the happy go lucky, outgoing, smiling person I usually am, and that people know....but every now and then....reality still hits....and it's hard....  so if I'm having a bad day....please just understand. If I snap, I promise I'll apologize, just give me a few minutes....and if I cry....let me be...it happens, I promise I'll be fine =). 

I love my life and my friends, and wouldn't change any of that for the world, God blessed me by putting the people in my life that He did.  I'm excited about learning my sign language again this summer. I'm excited about yardsales on Saturdays, and I'm excited about hopefully a few spontaneous trips.  This summer will be good, but please please, if you read this, pray one really big "unspoken."  It will mean more to me than you know.

I had a bird and my bird pleased me, so i fed my bird by the Yonder Tree,

Bird Said: Tweet-a-li-dee

I had a cat and my cat pleased me, so i fed my cat by the Yonder Tree,

Cat Said: Meow Meow 

Bird Said: Tweet-a-li-dee

I had a dog, and my dog pleases me, so i fed my dog by the Yonder Tree,

Dog Said:  Ruff Ruff

Cat Said: Meow Meow

Bird Said: Tweet-a-li-dee

Ahh....the joys of first grade.  We sing and dance so much, and it's just exiting. 

For a day that started out soooo long, it ended so wonderfully!

We didn't go to our internships today, instead we went to a place called Piney Lakes.  It's kind of out in Pleasant Garden area, right outside of Greensboro.  It's actually a very neat little place that obvisouly has a lake, and you can swim in it, as well as a disc golf course and a lot of little hiking trails and I think some high ropes courses; and this place is actually owned by UNCG, so we have access to it, when it's open. 

Although it has all of these lovely things.....we went for other reasons.  We had to partake in "Project Wild".... A seven hour event, where much of our day was spent outdoors....in the cold and slight rain.....that's a long time!  And....the building we did go in for other parts of the day, had no heat.....was not one of the funnest experiences...but we all went through it together!

The night ended wonderfully though!  I did have to work, but, while at work, it started to snow!  The snow picked up a lot too!  I saw some of THE biggest snowflakes ever.  It snowed the rest of the time we were there, and just stopped a little while ago!!the entire snow was completey uncalled for, making it even more exciting!!

God is good.